24.5.03
Ray's "ying si" is a nice song, its getting nicer and nicer. didnt realli like it when i first heard it. but now, its nice. acquired liking. but cant find the lyrics, haix, cos they're not popular YET and also cos they're still very new.
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came home from grandma's last night without the house key. my mum kept pressing the doorbell but apparently, my dad couldnt hear a single thing. oh well, and mum got so fed up cos it was my dad's fault for not having the house key attached to the car key and he had to drive my mum's car. ay, complicated. but aniwae, ya, so we didnt haf a key, everyone was dead asleep except my dad who was on the third floor, so he could hear NOTHING. mum started to say, "IDIOTIC" in a very irritating tone that irritated me. she was actually cursing my dad for his pathetic hearing cos she's supposedly a very alert and can-hear-even-the-slightest-sound person. haha. so...my mum cleverly didnt bring her phone and i so happened to didnt bring my phone too. hahahaha...so....no key, no phone. how to ever get in man. and mum refused to disturb the neighbour [who was still awake wad..] and make a phonecall from nx door. so, in the end, we went to 7-11 and i called dad with my fave public phone. hehe. so...dad opened the door. and when we drove into our porch, we could see that the neighbour came out into her garden..and mum started saying, "mrs yeo should have come out earlier!" ...dot dot dot. told u they were awake liao...still refuse to go ask. once mum got outta the car, she said to dad "wah...your hearing very bad hor?" *bangs head* much ado over nothing - just to get into the dammit house.
was feeling so hot last night. so i woke up and brought in the fan from my sis' room. then i woke up halfway again cos i was shivering like mad. so i went switch off the fan. wth. a bit crazy. felt as if i were in the obs hall on the first night when it poured like mad - the same extent of the shivering and coldness.
in conclusion, my night was one of total madness.
and today, i am determined to make my day a beautiful one. for the past few days, it has been traumatic. so....today will be different! [and to start things off i had a not-so-satisfactory breakfast which irritated me, but i refrained from complaining to my dad! :D] haix, im such a spoilt ass. and to prove it to you, i m going to make dad buy me apple pie to compensate for the not-so-nice breakfast later, hehehhee, when i go see her at shop n save. its been a while... wish me luck in making my day beautiful! :D
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23.5.03
total chinese marks released. fucked. ultra disappointed. and chia 'questioned' my performance in a so-damn-irritating tone. pls la. i noe i didnt do well liao can...then come ask me and make me feel bad. wtf. and some ppl just had to rub it in. yayaya...i caught everyone in surprise with my fabulous grades. then i ask myself, what went wrong? i have absolutely no idea. it just sucked.
then just when i got over chinese, other stuff came along.
the committee has been selected. the only thing i can say is - no comments. the entire thing turned topsy-turvy and some ppl miraculously made their way up. i dont exactly have objections against the nominees but oh well, i'd just say they were unexpected. and weird. all i can do now is keep all my grievances in me. im on the verge of implosion.
then because i was so pissed, i barked at my maid. oh well. that couldnt be helped and though i do feel slightly apologetic, i know its beyond me to go say sorry. so...just ferget it. everything's going downhill lately, my mood, my grades, everything! and my dad didnt tell my maid to cook, so im without lunch for now. starving. and a hungry man is easily angered. just feel like yelling at someone now. and tearing that someone into pieces. damn it.
so many problems, one after another. but then again, life's like that. the nice things come together and so do the bad ones. i think if you werent ard, life would be totally meaningless now. once again, i'd like to emphasise, i did not cry because of my grades. if i had yesterday, i'd already have committed suicide over my chinese.
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there's this girl in 'true heroes' [7pm ch8] whose name is xiaofen...
two distraught parents wheel their daughter who's lying on the trolley-bed thingy from a void deck to the ambulance. the parents wail and cry, "xiaofen! *sobs* xiaofen!!!"
there were no subtitles. so i wasnt sure. then the mother cries again, "xiaofen! *sobs*" and i was pretty sure it was 'xiaofen' that i heard.
the girl apparently committed suicide by taking pills and was foaming in the mouth and staring wide-eyed.
the scene changes
this fella..his name is eh...zhiguang? sth like that. zhiguang is in his house and is freaked out cos he was the one who caused the girl's suicide. he sexually abused her or sth like that so the girl committed suicide cos she was on the verge of breaking down. so he's afraid that the police will investigate and eventually reach him. he logs onto icq and his list of contacts appear on the screen. there's one contact "xiaofen" and he deletes all her messages to erase any evidence, i think.
so there - its xiaofen confirmed. now the question i'd like to pose: why on earth do the weirdest characters on-screen have to be called xiaofen?!?! it was previously michelle saram in threshold of an era II; that i already couldnt stand. and now, this girl who's sexually abused and dies. is this prophetic, somehow related to my life or what?? *sigh*
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mood fluctuated like nobody's business today. it wasnt mood swings though. it was just that one moment i'd receive gd news and the nx, bad ones. the day started off well...in fact, i was pretty exhilarated at some point of time. but, i cried. cried cos too many feelings were in me, and they threatened to spill out. it was just overwhelming. and i couldnt take it. at first i was able to control it, but after a while, it felt like some plant cell where u keep giving it in water and its cell wall just bursts. its nobody's fault. blame it on fate. this will be the last time im crying. thou shalt not shed a tear ever again. no more ever. its kinda ironic, i just told someone not to cry but yet, here i am, being the ultimate fool. i want to live life the happy way. and i wanna thank someone for making my day whenever im down in the dumps. somehow with you ard, life becomes so beautiful. and to yash and doro, thks a lot. and i feel like telling terri so much, i cried not because of my maths grades. why should i ever do that?! haix, but she's one person i need to thank also. and gek ling and shu min.
chinese sucked totally. felt so fucked up. dammit paper 1...the tchr blind or wad lor....think my efforts in writing compos just go down the drain like that. futility.
there's chinese tmr. again. dont feel like going but i noe i'll onli lose out more if i absent myself. forgot there's mock test tmr. didnt bring home my notes. am going to be so dead.
this malay lady was so sweet in the bus. i was still quite pissed with my day and she asked if i needed her to switch seats cos the sun was shining directly at my face. and if she moved elsewhere, i could sit at her seat and avoid the sun's rays. she's such a nice lady. other ppl wouldnt give a damn. how nice of her.
then when i was walking home, this maid dashed across the road and suddenly stopped in front of me. i thot wth...i thot she wanted to ask for some directions or wanted to tell me sth? and she just said "excuse me!" for blocking her path in running and that was followed by a slight giggle and she ran away. oh man, how freaky. and she has such huge eyes? hahaha. freaked.
ive learnt a lesson today: parents must impress in their kids that no matter which secondary sch they go to, whether it's a co-ed or single-sex sch, they ought to stay neutral; its only for their own good. it's a prevention measure against social imbalances and emotional disorders.
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22.5.03
migosh. today's episode of vive la famille is so damn touching!...couldnt help but tear. realli realli beautiful. *sigh* tmr's last episode already.
realised i didnt bring home my chinese notes so cant do the compo. yippee. succeeded in procrastinating again. lemme see..the compo was due three days ago or so? haha. nvm la. slacking just rox.
going to bed now, exhausted. nite nite!
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did a maths. tried my best liao....21.1 i noe how to do all...haha...so happy. think consulting yash helps. ;) but...the bad news is, 21.2 dunno how to do a single qn...hahahaha...thot my method was right...but i'd always get error on the calculator...how infuriating.
the house is sold. omigod...this totally rox. elation! and daph's pet phrase...."congratulations and jubilation"? think it doesnt make sense at all. hurhur. hahaha...just so glad its sold. problem-free for the time being. i mean my parents, not me.
eng and chi results out tmr. phy mcq sucked. and so did bio. just that phy was slightly worse - one thing i cant get over, i lost 3 marks out of pure dumbness.
64 - 20 = 24.....wah....smartest kid in town. chia says that there are a few Bs for chi...which means to say others did worse. *huge sigh* what on earth happened...oh well, chia said that our compo "xie de hen cha"....so what can i say? and as a result, there's chinese this saturday. chinese chinese and more chinese. cant wait for the chinese Os to be over.
oh my, tmr's friday! how time flies. the kids from obs will be back soon. happy for daph. nth to say. ciao.
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21.5.03
supposed to be doing hw now but im feeling way too sian. tried doing a maths but it was trashy, i didnt noe how to do. almost died of frustration, so there, i left it blank. shall 'consult' some ppl tmr..haha. anyway chia said that we could onli do chi hw...so mrs gek, my apologies. and its not as if im doing my chi anyway..hehe.
came back at 6:15 exactly. dad asked with a tone of suspicion, "why are you back so late today?" in mandarin.
i realise that whenever he uses mandarin, it means there's sth he cant express freely...cos its like he's suspicious of me, and he's probing. haix...and i replied in a suspicious tone, "lessons onli ended at 5!"....and turned my face away to avoid eyecontact. somehow when he asks these qns, and my conscience is absolutely clear, i still cant look at him in the eye and say it. i just appear guilty. strange. i think its because ive lied before. in the past.
cut my hair again. ay....luckily mum didnt scold this time. zoomed to the salon so quickly. the moment i reached home, i was questioned, i got changed, and viola, we're at the salon.
so dead tired now. shall go watch my precious tv show.
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20.5.03
we're back at the temp block. woohoo. but the process of moving there was simply horrible. i think the timing chosen to move was pretty pathetic - 1pm when the heat's at the maximum. it was terrible but i think worth the effort. the sch's mad, making us, students, carry out such manual and labourous work.
so hungry now...waiting for time to pass and for dinner to be laid out on the table. haha. there's chi hw today, but i realli cant bring myself to go get started on it. think i'll do it before watching heartlanders..hahahah...first time im watching. last episode is it? dunno...aniwae cant believe i went back to clsrm block to go retrieve the vincent calendar. *slaps forehead* so vincent is now in my desk since the tchr's table is temporarily not in the temp block yet. hehe. maybe the calendar shall remain there permanently. hahaha. haix. im so bad. the calendar isnt mine, but i dont know who it belongs to also. so....*evil grinz* since nobody can be bothered with vincent, i'll take good care of him then...he has such a huge private space in my desk kiex...i purposely shove all my other stuff away for him. awww...
excitement man. yash's moving to sit behind me tmr. hahahhaha...oh boy oh boy. so fun. this is going to be so exciting. and yash, like wad daph said, prepare to be harassed by me. ;) and....some advice for you as a newcomer: be wary of eavesdroppers once u're in our territory ya? hahaha..and be mindful of what you say....oh man, i realli wonder how u're going to survive sitting there....dont worry la, with me and daph, we'll make it worse for you; we shall make it living hell. :D ah...im learning to be sadistic..but you cant blame me too, cos its under your influence - the master of sadism.
ay..im crapping. guess its cos im too hungry and bored. am so looking forward to tmr....
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19.5.03
lalala...nothing to do...its bedtime but i dont feel like sleeping. too wide awake. my mum caught a cold. she's hiding in the comfort of the warm living area now and shivering when the windows are closed, there's no fan and no aircon. she's always like this. she was just complaining that the aircon temp was too high so i lowered it for her...and now she's shivering. silliness. haha. and ironically, she loves suaning me and saying that im weak. ah..fine..i noe i get dizzy spells but its not my fault either. furthermore, its inherited from her. muahaha.
ay..so bored. dont like the feeling of the few minutes before falling asleep. my mind runs wild and i start thinking. incoherent thoughts that just go swivelling and they're hard to shake off sometimes - that's one reason for my insomnia; for the occasional struggling-to-sleep-nights.
actualli i haf nothing to say but just felt like blogging. somehow.
seems such a waste to go to bed now - its such a gorgeous night.
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haf only one word to describe today -- exhausting. am dead beat. the heat is draining all my energy away...and felt so lethargic for the second half of the day. was daydreaming in ms chia's lesson already...and she still had to ask me to do zao ju for her...how smart of her...to get a 'subordinate' to do the thinking for her since she was too tired. almost felt like telling her, "ms chia, im damn tired too!! can dont ask me?" haha. and i'd just get hacked. lit was so dumb. hahaha. cant believe that azlin realli asked me to write on the board when i was just fooling around. mygosh...can realli laugh to death. oh well, it was fun writing anyway...so long nvr write on the board liao. the sec 3s are at obs. how jealous. beautiful memories. oh...yah, that reminds me, we're moving back to temp block....YES! rejoice man...hahahahha...my most memorable days in crescent. *dumb* and we shall no longer have to suffer in silence, tolerating the heat in the clsrm block. at long last..the airconditioning is finally back in place. wonder whos the smartass who invented it. hehehe. i give him two thumbs up. haha. TVMobile. ;) am going to watch my chinese serial...ah...relaxation...but the days are so numbered. chinese Os will be here before you even know it.
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